All I see is where our days repeat
And our love goes on
As our hair grows long <3 ~HelloGoodbye

I'm on a thrifting crave GAHH I need to find a way to make some mula...hmm

I'm usually indecisive when it comes to my feelings....but now I'm just kind of fed up and I honestly don't care anymore.

Ellie Goulding - "The Writer"

You wait for a silence
I wait for a word
Lying next to your frame
Girl unobserved
You change your position
You're changing me
Casting these shadows
Where they shouldn't be

We're interrupted
By the heat of the sun
Trying to prevent
What's already begun
You're just a body
I can smell your skin
And when I feel it
You're wearing thin

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer
Decide the words I say?
Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

Sat on your sofa
It's all broken springs
This isn't the place for
Those violin strings
I try out a smile
And I aim it at you
You must have missed it
You always do

But I've got a plan
Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer
Decide the words I say?
Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Interrupted

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows
Interrupted

You wait
I wait
Casting shadows

Why don't you be the artist
And make me out of clay?
Why don't you be the writer
Decide the words I say?
Cause I'd rather pretend
I'll still be there at the end
Only it's too hard to ask
Won't you try to help me?
Won't you try to help me?
Won't you try to help me? 

Whats Next?

I haven’t been able to post my thoughts for a while now… situations have made it sort of difficult to. So I’m moving back to California in June. I don’t know- before this whole mess happened I felt that this scene was getting old and that I was too comfortable here. Hanging out with the same friends the same old stuff happening. I thought I was ready for a challenging new life but now that it’s coming at me and 2000 mi/hr, I don’t think I can handle it. I’ve been happily living this same old life for almost 5 years. I can’t believe its been that long. All the memories of walking home, fruit names, SOS, birds, stupid pandas, laughing trees, rap battles, mermaids, late night talks spilling out our thoughts and hearts and so many more things. Writing this I feel tears coming to my eyes. I’ve made the best friends here, I had my first relationship here, I’ve learned so much I’ve cried so much. There was good there was bad. But It’s time to move on, like I’ve told myself so many times, never get to attached because eventually everything fades into the distance. Were all going to move on, were all going to forget this ever happened. I’m going to try my best to be content with everything, so when I look back I will say “hey that was a good time” Making this choice, I want to feel good about it I want to be happy with all of what I did, I don’t want to have a feeling of regret and sorrow. I’m going to leave with no feeling of bitterness just pure content of the period of life I created.

Golden State- The Static Between Us

You, and I
Tried to bridge the space between us
Here we are
Thought I’d always be beside you

The longest road I walk alone
The hardest part Is letting go

Every time this world crashes down on me
I’m crawling from the wreckage and the static between
Every time I’m down, up against the wall
I keep on holding on, ready for the fall
Every time

Your star, it shines
You know it burns so bright without me
Through the night
Lying next to the space where you’d be

Looking for forgiveness in your eyes
Even though we said goodbye

Every time this world crashes in on me
I’m crawling from the wreckage and the static between
Every time I’m down, up against the wall
I keep on holding on, ready for the fall
Every time
Every time

You think that I would know by now
But love pulls you in somehow
It’s the one thing I can live without

Every time this world crashes in on me
I’m crawling from the wreckage and the static between
Every time I’m down, up against the wall
I keep on holding on, you know we face it all
Every time
Every time
Every time
Every time

Every time this world crashes in on me
I’m crawling from the wreckage and the static between

I'm just a soulless narcissistic  selfish bitch. yuh thats right.

Your hypocrisy sickens me. I have lost complete respect for you. The way you put on that facade, acting altruistic and noble, yet seconds later turn back to your outraged outlandish character. You question my selfishness, my ungrateful greedy heart yet you don't realize your own heart.

Inspirational Pallet

love it <3 and love them, they're super talented!

 

All I can say is this weekend was a total revival for me thank you lord, you have saved me from the aftermath. Thank you for the people in my life, they have encouraged me so much and have been so much fun to be around, i am completely grateful for them. I'm praying for continue renewal please come into my heart and never let me leave you again, transform my soul into something that is pleasing to you <3

Heart for A Heart

I made that promise and i don't think I can continue living that out. It hurts to much. Knowing that I tried, I fought, and put in my heart for something I didn't need you to say anything. I didn't need you to express any form of care. Hearing you say how much you care about her, about how much you were able to put yourself out there, just to make her happy just to show how much you care. I'm not upset that you weren't able to care about me as much as i did and do, there isn't much you could have done about it-you just didn't have the heart. I'm still going to sit here and give you my honest advice, im going to sit here faking a smile, encouraging you because I want you to be happy with everything you do. I prayed for this everyday and hey god answered my wish someway or another.

Zoolander is the shitt watched it like a bigillion times

DO YOU SEE THIS?

This is the fucking Audi A9 Concept vehicle. It is the most beautiful motherfucker to light up my Tumblr page. The thing has engines in it’s wheels.In the wheels.

Oh? Where’s the windshield? It’s fully integrated into the roof using nano technology.

That means it repairs itself.

White isn’t a very sporty color? NO WORRIES. This baby can change it’s  color to whatever you fucking want.

ORGASMICSHIET.

damnnn thats freaking nice! this only makes me love audi's even more  <3

And to think I was done with this...I thought the memories faded, that the feelings dissolved, that we were left mere strangers. Yet when I saw you walking with her, talking, laughing, smiling... I don't think I ever seen you act that way toward me, you were cold and introverted with your feelings. But I accepted it; I took it as it was. But today, when glanced at you, you were different, you were happy; the light in your eyes was magnificent. I'm envious but that's okay- I even said it to you once that I pray for you everyday, wish upon for you everyday that maybe that one day that person that you would be able to open up to, that you would be able to smile about, have a tiny speck of true feeling show. That if that person where to appear I would be happy-content.

 [ I don't know why but I imagined this ring when I saw you two. Its the "heart to heart" ring by James Avery. I'll still be hoping and praying that you will be able to have heart to heart conversations with her unlike we ever truly did]

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Dream High :]



 I dont need to flirt i will seduce you with my awkwardness.